One way I had protected myself from further abuse was always to act tough, as though I had no reason to fear anyone. The problem was that I kept more than potential abusers at bay. I’ve struggled with this for years, never quite able to let down my guard. I have noticed, however, that I don’t feel so compelled to be on guard all of the time since taking the class. While I still immediately identify all exits when I enter a room/building, I no longer find that I MUST have my back protected at all times. I actually sat in a meeting recently with my back facing the door … the first time in over 20 years! Being grabbed from behind was the absolute worst exercise in the class for me, but I am now extremely grateful that I did it. I have taken several self-defense courses in the past, but none of them was as effective as IMPACT. I imagine the difference is the unique structure of IMPACT … identifying fears openly and taking the time to discuss our reactions throughout the class. Thank you so much for the opportunity to participate. Rarely can one program address so many needs and allow so much growth as this one.
IMPACT has changed my life. It has been over a month since the program ended, but I’ve noticed that I now stand a little taller — less afraid. Impact not only gave me the physical ability and training to fight off an attacker, it has helped me grow as a person. I now welcome frustration and fear in my life as an opportunity for growth. I learned through IMPACT that the only way to get over a fear is to blast right through it. I have been facing fears I’ve carried my whole life and seeing myself getting stronger physically, emotionally and spiritually. IMPACT has made me a better person!
IMPACT had a profound effect on my sense of self. Most significantly, I am reminded that it is safe to be a woman. This simple statement does not come easily or naturally to me. Still I struggle in my daily life to soften and open to believing and living as though I really am safe. Through my experience I grew as a person. I felt surrounded by supportive women who encouraged and nurtured my growth and vice versa. So much internal shifting was going on for all of us, that our meetings became a place to process and ground, and this was important. The physical aspect awakened sleeping emotion and power in me. I moved through many emotions: fear, sadness, rage and into a feeling of victory.